No, Lev, I hear ya. I've been in that situation too, and in many ways, I prefer what I am doing now. That pressure from the band/upcoming gigs/need to learn new material/etc, especially when family and perhaps other things too come into play, can take the fun out of it, no doubt.

It is way more relaxing going to an open mic night and play a few tunes and then go home. No pressure!

Plus, now you can perhaps record some of your own stuff and share with people like us here, take lessons, learn other material that motivates you in your own time, etc.

Guitar playing's gotta be fun in the end, otherwise, why do it?